Heres the truth… I feel bad that I always blow you guys off.. I try not to avoid your calls. Im always at work.. over 12 hours a day 7 days aweek.. Tony is stuck here helping out now and he doesnt really know what the heck he is doing unless told what to do… but i guess hes in training… or what ever.. Champaign is the worst city I always visit… I dont miss the people any more… I miss the city it self… Theres always something different.. I just dont know how to explain my self.. And I shouldnt be making up excuses… Everyday people accuse me of making up excuses.. To cover up for shit i didnt do or shit i didnt get done.. Its not an excuse… I didnt get shit done.. I didnt do it.. In my case with you guys.. I keep blowing you offf and say Ill go help.. Each week is different… One week is busy.. one week its not… some days i feel like jumping in front of traffic some days I dont.. I just dont know what to do any more.. Im having an early mid-life crisis and I feel like giving up. Thats the only thing that explains it.. Stan brought up that idea.. I just dont know… I dont give a fuck about anything any more.. My morals and self pride arent what they used to be.. I feel worthless.. I dont know what else to say..
Im sorry..
Your Old Friend,
Casey
Categories: Dear Journal
I wouldn’t be upset if you would just talk to me. I understand that you are busy and that you live 6 hours away. I didn’t expect you to jump when I said I needed help. You’ve still got friends that care about you Casey. I’d rather talk to you in person or on the phone rather than on here. Just give me call. Please.
By the way…
Thats a badass tattoo!!!
hey…cool tat! It is totally you.
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