itzdarave

if shoes stayed clean? Many thoughts cross my mind all day. I don’t know how I do it. Without music I wouldn’t be able to spend time at the gym and get my fitness in. Without music driving wouldn’t be as great as I enjoy driving. Fund permitting I plan on going to Kansas City next weekend alone if no one wants to go with. Still trying to recoup from having a teenage daughter that drained all my funds. LOL (thanks Cuzz) The weekend after that I will be in North Carolina for almost two weeks. Time on the road by myself should give me time to clear my head. The thoughts of moving away from Chambana, the thoughts of moving to what location out of 5 I have decided on. The thought of sticking around here and sticking to my plan on this one day million dollar company. Like always, when in need to vent open book with no judgement I have no one to turn to. The only guidance I’ve had was my self. Even though I sought out opinions of others in the past, it has always been my final actions. For now I’ll just stick to eating healthy and hitting up the gym. Some self motivation is better than self destruction. I sure could use a cheeseburger right now!

Well, I haven’t thought of a new years resolution which I tend to never do.. I’ve spent a few NYE alone by myself home alone laying in bed trying to sleep. NYE tends to be just an excuse to party and people making a reason to make a change. It doesn’t take a new year to make a change. Which is why I started going back to the gym before NYE.. Took a 3 month break from it. Life has changed slightly but the slightest changes are always for the better. Shit happens for a reason. Sticking to my original plan I’ve been planning most of last year. Cut my hours at work to have time for Getfitted and be less stressed over something that is not my problem. Started going back to the gym. Seems things will go accordingly as planned. Taking charge of my life again. I’m my own boss. My own self. Since I was cutting my hours at work. And I might have some free time or need a break from Getfitted. I was wanting to volunteer in something positive for the community or children. I used to volunteer at the library when I was a kid. In the children department. Just wanting positive things in my life. Getting old. They say the happier you are the longer you’ll live.
I’d love to die happy.