I’ve always wanted to treat some one right. I’ve always wanted to be next to some ones side.. I’ve always wanted to be my self in front of her.. I’ve always just wanted to be me. I’ve always wanted her to like for me not for me trying to fit in with the world.. I’ve just been my self and I’ve done what I could.. And I dont know what is going to happen.. All my theorys and thoughts about life have all came to play.. I finally realized what I preach is real.. After i realized that what I believe in what i feel strong for what I want What i want to do.. makes me stronger.. Since the begining of the year.. I started beliving in my self.. And I want to keep at it.. It was my inner thoughts of believing in my self for my new year resolution.. I just want to be happy.. I want to cure my broken soul.. I want to love some one.. I want to be loved… I want to give it my all and not turn back.. I believe in my self… but is there really some one out there that will believe in me and be there for me just as i would be for them? IM sure no body understands me fully.. NO ONE… Im a strange individual.. Im fairly smart.. I know how the world and people work… Im just tired of living over and over.. repeating what ive done in life… I want to take the next step… Theres more to life than just partying, cars, girls, shopping, sex and drugs.. I want to see the world.. I want to see the world from others point of view.. IM TIRED of SOCIETY! Sick of the drama.. Sick of the BULL SHIT!… SICK OF PEOPLE! Life is seriously fucking simple.. yet we all make it so fucking complicated to make ends meet to look decent infront of everyone else… Its like life is a fucking competition… Thats all i remember growing up.. life being a competition.. whos child got the best grades in school. whoms child had the nicest clothes.. whos family had the biggest house… whoms family had the nicest cars.. FUCK all that.. seriously! a competition.. i care less about that shit.. i careless how i look or what i wear.. i give a shit! people just need to understand where im coming from.. Life is simple.. Dont go with the flow.. because there isnt no damn flow.. do what you got to do.. fuck everyone else.. make your own damn flow… and bring whom ever wants to join you.. fucking hate the world.. yes i said it.. IM MAD AT THE WORLD! Just because things dont go my way doesnt mean i go get mad at the world all the time.. I speak the truth.. Im tired of lying, tired of BS’in, tired of trying to be something im not.. I dont want to fit in.. ive stopped trying to fit in.. IM tired of EVERYONE else trying to fit in.. Im just being me.. hate me all you want.. talk all the shit you fucking want.. causeWORLD i give a fuck…. life isnt a competition.. life isnt a joke, life isnt just partying and working… theres more too it… i hate this place.. i hate this place.. i hate it… Im a stable insane individual. Dont push the wrong buttons in my face.. I bite… It takes alot to get me on my bad side.. but you wouldnt want to see it..
Dear world,
see you in hell… wait a minute.. is there seriously religion? or is it faith and hope? Do you believe in your self? If you dont.. why believe in someone or something to help you believe in your self? Any how.. its a crazy world out there.. talk to people you wouldnt normally talk to.. they are intresting..
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