Went to Tonys corporate function with him. Had a few drinks meet people he worked with etc etc… About 11pm we decide to go upto thaiplace to see khema… We called but khema wasnt working since he did take the week off.. LOL. We still went up there.. I pulled up in the parking lot and I said.. “…is here.. Oh well..” Got out and we went in. Thats our spot. We still went up in there… When I walked in.. It was the first time I saw a beautiful smile turn in to an oh shit wtf look. Its whatever I just walked passed and said hi to everyone else at the place… The funny thing is when I sat down at the bar, the bartender gave me the oh shit wtf look and looked down the bar.. Had my drink of makers on the rocks and 3 shots of what ever.. I was koo. Tony had an issue problem break out in his mind… I actually had to speak and talk logic to his ass. If he remembers he’ll actually understand me and my point of view of living on mother earth. When we were leaving I walked up to her and rubbed on her back, gav her a half sort of hug.. Thats all i could do.. As long as shes happy its all good. Im not mad at her. She ignores my texts and one day run into her at a place and shes with some guy? What did she do? Ohshit wtf look? I did what i did. I waved and kept walking.. Kind of fucked how people ignore you.. I didnt know people still did that.. Funny that is all.. All i could do was laugh. I laughed at tony as well.. After having 8 drinks that night. It made me speak logic to tony. The funny thing I dont really follow what I preech… Im that fucked up in the head as well.. Yet I know that life is simple. haa… One of theses days Ill be following what I speak because its the truth and I know its true… Little do I know i follow it slightly… Not fully but i do…
This post is dedicated to Patchouly. One day if ever you read this.. I hope you smile.. Even though everything is/was fucked up.. My issues didnt go well with your issues… It only takes a few conversations to figure out how a person is.. But it takes a life to fully understand and have faith in another person.. I wish things would have worked out. I really have issues that no one really understands and I try my best to cope with them. Two months of memory is with you. All I can do is smile. You were a perfect person in my eyes.. But under everything, I knew you had issues too.. Just like everyone else on this planet everyone has their own issues…
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