Yes, it would be nice to do my own business here but the way I see it… It wouldn’t be worth the stress to do it at the moment. I have to deal with mums boutique still. Probably have to still deal with the restaurant even though I countless times say I don’t want anything to do with the restaurant. My problem is I don’t have any leisure time. I don’t have time to sit back and relax and think about what I’ve accomplished in the past week or month.. I’ve been here in NC for almost a year now and it feels like everything I do isn’t enough. The family thinks I just twiddle my thumbs and play on my phone and computer. Do they not understand I don’t get paid to do what they expect me to do. I keep telling my mom they need to hire someone to help out. She keeps saying they can’t afford to pay anyone. The way I see it they don’t send home anyone when they need to be sending someone home. If it’s slow send a server home. If it slow send one of the kitchen help home if they are just standing around doing nothing. Business is business simple as that.
I’m still here because I want the boutique to grow and make it. My mom says but the restaurant pays you thats why I want you there to help. I said DONT PAY ME THEN. I dont want to be at the restaurant. If I spent more time doing things at the boutique to make things happen maybe the boutique could afford to pay me a measly less than minimum wage salary.
But here I am waiting to do what I want to do. Still… I’d say I’m sitting on about $30,000 worth of equipment and supplies. I don’t even think my mum realizes it. She says oh why don’t you just sell your screen printing equipment. SMH…. I can just pack all my things and move to Kansas City or Phoenix or San Francisco or Seattle or Dallas or Denver… And lose contact with the family again. I choose to be here in NC to help yet they don’t understand where “I’m coming from” or what I’m doing. Apparently the family doesn’t understand I’m the next HEAD of family. My mum agrees as well. If I wasn’t around here my mother wouldn’t have no one to complain to about things the family does. I understand what my mum has gone through to get her family here from Laos and the lack of appreciation she gets from them. They are all spoiled yet they expect more. Sometimes she says she feels bad that she treats them better than her sons at times. Anyways… I’ll end this here.
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