Well, I dont know what to think. Its hard to believe some one is serious if they seem to be confused and not sure.. Its hard to make a commitment if you dont believe in your self… Marriage in the other hand.. thats serious.. it takes two… a big commitment from both parties.. but if one still doubts their self after being engaged? how will that turn out?
On another note in the sticky pad.. I just dont want my heart and soul ripped from my body… ‘Cause only god(s) (what ever you believe in) knows what i would do. Ive had a troubled life.. Im in it or Im out… Im ready to live life to the next level or die.. Not saying im going to kill my self.. but saying Im ready.. Im not affraid.. but its not my choice to decide when I die.. But I can try to live life.. The way I want to… Disappearing so no one knows where your at? Changes everything… If your strong inside.. you can do it.. nothing can stop you.. The people that actually care will care and not try to help you and not help you one bit cause they care.. I know if i disappeared from my friends and family on my own.. out in the universe.. Id be alright.. Im smart and strong enough to take care of my self.. It would take a few years to get my mind on track in full.. but id make it.. Not saying i would disappear.. but it crosses my mind from time to time… Cause i know its the fastest way to cure a broken heart and soul… This isnt doubt… its just what i know what i would do when in need of help.. I feel like its going to happen.. but a feeling doesnt mean much if it isnt as strong as something more than just a feeling… Its unexplainable something more than a feeling.. think about it..
Is it wrong to confuse the confused? Or is that a learning experience? Things are some time unexplainable.. I just always hope for the best… I try to think positive and vent when needed.. Yet no one really understands me.. Go figure… Life is really really simple.. Yet we all make it complicated… Just get rid of the complications.. and have some beliefs, hope, and trust.. the world would change…