This was from a trip back in early August 2012. Tommy, Ana, and I drove to NC to pick up Meme for last high school semester at UHS.
if shoes stayed clean? Many thoughts cross my mind all day. I don’t know how I do it. Without music I wouldn’t be able to spend time at the gym and get my fitness in. Without music driving wouldn’t be as great as I enjoy driving. Fund permitting I plan on going to Kansas City next weekend alone if no one wants to go with. Still trying to recoup from having a teenage daughter that drained all my funds. LOL (thanks Cuzz) The weekend after that I will be in North Carolina for almost two weeks. Time on the road by myself should give me time to clear my head. The thoughts of moving away from Chambana, the thoughts of moving to what location out of 5 I have decided on. The thought of sticking around here and sticking to my plan on this one day million dollar company. Like always, when in need to vent open book with no judgement I have no one to turn to. The only guidance I’ve had was my self. Even though I sought out opinions of others in the past, it has always been my final actions. For now I’ll just stick to eating healthy and hitting up the gym. Some self motivation is better than self destruction. I sure could use a cheeseburger right now!
Well, I haven’t thought of a new years resolution which I tend to never do.. I’ve spent a few NYE alone by myself home alone laying in bed trying to sleep. NYE tends to be just an excuse to party and people making a reason to make a change. It doesn’t take a new year to make a change. Which is why I started going back to the gym before NYE.. Took a 3 month break from it. Life has changed slightly but the slightest changes are always for the better. Shit happens for a reason. Sticking to my original plan I’ve been planning most of last year. Cut my hours at work to have time for Getfitted and be less stressed over something that is not my problem. Started going back to the gym. Seems things will go accordingly as planned. Taking charge of my life again. I’m my own boss. My own self. Since I was cutting my hours at work. And I might have some free time or need a break from Getfitted. I was wanting to volunteer in something positive for the community or children. I used to volunteer at the library when I was a kid. In the children department. Just wanting positive things in my life. Getting old. They say the happier you are the longer you’ll live.
I’d love to die happy.
“I have a special spot for you in my heart. Just like all the people I care for and would do anything for no questions asked. (to an extent) Not everyone has a spot.
I may not say or show ones they have a spot. But the ones that have a spot are very lucky. I just dont know what to say or show. So many people come and go out of my life. Not to many people I can say would do anything for me no questions asked.
Its like the whole who would you take a bullet for.”
We’ve had some good times. Although its been several years since we’ve hung out seems like it was like yesterday.
Circa 2006
“He Is Not Dead
I cannot say, and I will not say
That he is dead. He is just away.
With a cheery smile, and a wave of the hand,
He has wandered into an unknown land
And left us dreaming how very fair
It needs must be, since he lingers there.
And you—oh you, who the wildest yearn
For an old-time step, and the glad return,
Think of him faring on, as dear
In the love of There as the love of Here.
Think of him still as the same. I say,
He is not dead—he is just away.”
? James Whitcomb Riley
…they really aren’t. For the past few months shit fell south for me, but honestly it really hasn’t. Things just haven’t went as planned. That’s alright. Things happen for a reason. Timing was off… Next time around things will work right? Fixing the LS400 is planned for winter since I won’t be driving it. Even though the TL will be gone after Christmas when the fam comes to visit, I plan on treking on my mountain bike. Dress for the occasion. Put my winter survival gear to use… haha. Saves some gas money right? If things go well this winter… Spring and Summer will be the best ever. Just gotta have faith.