Went to Tonys corporate function with him.\u00a0 Had a few drinks meet people he worked with etc etc… About 11pm we decide to go upto thaiplace to see khema… We called but khema wasnt working since he did take the week off.. LOL.\u00a0 We still went up there..\u00a0 I pulled up in the parking lot and I said.. “…is here.. Oh well..” Got out and we went in.\u00a0 Thats our spot.\u00a0 We still went up in there…\u00a0 When I walked in.. It was the first time I saw a beautiful smile turn in to an oh shit wtf look.\u00a0 Its whatever I just walked passed and said hi to everyone else at the place… The funny thing is when I sat down at the bar, the bartender gave me the oh shit wtf look and looked down the bar..\u00a0 Had my drink of makers on the rocks and 3 shots of what ever.. I was koo.\u00a0 Tony had an issue problem break out in his mind…\u00a0 I actually had to speak and talk logic to his ass.\u00a0 If he remembers he’ll actually understand me and my point of view of living on mother earth.\u00a0 When we were leaving I walked up to her and rubbed on her back, gav her a half sort of hug..\u00a0 Thats all i could do..\u00a0 As long as shes happy its all good.\u00a0 Im not mad at her.\u00a0 She ignores my texts and one day run into her at a place and shes with some guy?\u00a0 What did she do?\u00a0 Ohshit wtf look?\u00a0 I did what i did.\u00a0 I waved and kept walking..\u00a0 Kind of fucked how people ignore you..\u00a0 I didnt know people still did that..\u00a0 Funny that is\u00a0all..\u00a0 All i could do was laugh.\u00a0 I laughed at tony as well.. After having 8 drinks that night.\u00a0 It made me speak logic to tony.\u00a0 The funny thing I dont really follow what I preech… Im that fucked up in the head as well..\u00a0 Yet I know that life is simple. haa…\u00a0 One of theses days Ill be following what I speak because its the truth and I know its true… Little do I know i follow it slightly… Not fully but i do…<\/p>\n

This post is dedicated to Patchouly.\u00a0 One day if ever you read this..\u00a0\u00a0 I hope you smile.. Even though everything is\/was fucked up..\u00a0 My issues didnt go well with your issues… It only takes a few conversations to figure out how a person is..\u00a0\u00a0 But it takes a life to fully understand and have faith in another person..\u00a0 I wish things would have worked out.\u00a0 I really have issues that no one really understands and I try my best to cope with them.\u00a0 Two months of memory is with you.\u00a0 All I can do\u00a0is smile.\u00a0 You were a perfect person in my eyes..\u00a0 But under everything, I knew you had issues too.. Just like everyone else on this planet everyone has their own issues…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Went to Tonys corporate function with him.\u00a0 Had a few drinks meet people he worked with etc etc… About 11pm we decide to go upto thaiplace to see khema… We called but khema wasnt working since he did take the week off.. LOL.\u00a0 We still went up there..\u00a0 I pulled up in the parking lot […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[7],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-55","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-dear-journal"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/itzdarave.com\/wp\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/55","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/itzdarave.com\/wp\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/itzdarave.com\/wp\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/itzdarave.com\/wp\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/itzdarave.com\/wp\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=55"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/itzdarave.com\/wp\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/55\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/itzdarave.com\/wp\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=55"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/itzdarave.com\/wp\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=55"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/itzdarave.com\/wp\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=55"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}